Who Am I, God?: A Journey Book

Identity. Something each of us struggles with at some point in our lives. Who am I, and what is my purpose? Can we make sense of so many unknowns? The dreamer they call Katylyn, tries. ＂Who am I, God?＂ asks and, through a series of chapters, seeks to resolve some of the toughest questions and pains of growing up that young women face. This book explores moments of faith, fear, love, heartache, change and stagnation, through an honest and light-hearted lens. Katylyn knows that discovering identity can be difficult. This documented journey was created to offer encouragement and support to the beautiful young women who may also be whispering in their minds: who am I, God? The point of this book is not to give step by step instructions of how to fix your life. It’s not to throw seemingly pointless advice in your face, either. Instead, this book is a reflection of my thoughts and ideas about the journey of change. Journeys in which each who travel them embark adjustment, challenges, fear and resistance. There’s nothing anyone could ever say to make change easier, regardless of how many self-help books present themselves. In that case, this book is to be considered as more of a comfort, that you’re not the only one facing challenges and taking down giants. It’s simply a reminder that change is a fact of life, and God will always be there to support our weary selves in the mess of it all. This book is a reminder that today is not the end, and to smile, because the sun always shines whether we see it or not.

＂If I could make one wish for you, I’d wish that all your dreams would come true.＂ I’ve heard that from my mother since I could remember. Both her, and my father, protected me greatly from the qualms of anything less than dreaming big, unexplainable, nearly impossible, dreams. The idea that nothing was too big for God has been one that has streamlined every area of my life. It’s no surprise, then, that even though I’ve faced a few rocky roads, faith and hope have been the support beams on which I’ve been established. My intention as an author and publisher is simply to see readers filled with hope and inspired to dream beyond the limits. I pray that each word becomes an arrow that cuts straight to the heart, separating truth from disappointment, or doubt, or fear. The name Katherine Louise is not my given name. My given, maiden name is actually Katylyn Kuchta. I felt, however, that I was to write as Katherine Louise, and the story for which is quite important to who I am. Through my journey, I stumbled upon a segment of time when I was completely ridden with unworthiness and guilt. One day, during a drive home from visiting my family, I felt the Lord tell me to pull off an exit. I pulled into a gas station and simply began to cry. ＂Why am I here, Lord, and how could someone so holy even think to speak to someone like me?＂ I closed my eyes and saw a vision of myself standing in tattered clothes. The Lord came and began to twirl me. As He did, my tattered clothes turned into a beautiful white, flowing dress. I said to Him, ＂So, this is the real Katylyn?＂ and He responded, ＂No, this is Katherine.＂ The Lord called me by a different name; I didn’t even know if that was allowed. I came out of the vision wondering what just happened. Then I remembered that all throughout the Bible, God renamed people based on who they really were. I looked up the meaning of Katherine and it means ＂pure, white, and clean.＂ It was as if God was saying my mistakes and shame from the past didn’t count--that wasn’t my identity.Therefore, I write as Katherine because that’s who the Lord says that I am. I hope through my books, each reader is inspired to search out more of who He says they are.